Unspoken

There's so much
i want to express
i cannot think straight
so much pain,
so much anguish
I was promised, Sworn even
That the pain I had endured
Pain in general, would stay
Within the past
I was promised authenticity,
Love, and relaxation
It was very safe to say
I fell in love
I was so head over heels
He's all I could think about
Dream about
He's all I wanted, all that I needed
Everything and anything that consisted
Within my tiny world
I often dreamed
Of kissing beneath the stars
playing in a babbling brook
And yet
Everything was shattered
Within a single moment
The lies then began to unravel
The web begins to crumble
I finally seen the warnings
And yet, it was too late
I could not save my own heart
Shattered, into a million pieces
with absolutely nothing to repair
The damage that had been done
When the truth came out
The person I thought he was
Was killed
Bringing with it
Each Promise
My most precious Possession
My heart.
And so now,
I sit at home by myself
Razor in hand
Scarlet tears escaping my body
It's no use crying
Over something you should've seen
It's no use trying
To find love. To be happy
Pain is the only thing you'll receive